the last few days have been spent at home. didnt study much cos i wasnt in the mood to and my mind was just filled with so many thoughts that i could just spend a whole day memorizing a disgusting chem bonding table.

and i realised many things. i realised that i cant live without my psp cos now i hear songs with it. i realised that running takes away your misery and makes you forget about some stuff that just clings on to you. i realised that i can live without sleep.i realised that i have given up many things in my life just because of some things. i realise that listening to some songs always makes me cry. i realised that i miss school cos i cant see my friends and i miss them :( i realised that my good friends really stand by me. and i also realised that some people just hurt you without knowing it and they have no qualms about it. and they never ever looked back and regret what they have done and they dont feel the pain you feel.

but i am not going to let it affect me so much cos i got to really do well for my repapers and i am really glad for the people who helped me alot. thanks geraldine for making me cry and laugh. thank you jeanette for always trying to organise study outings for me but i guess i would be fine staying at home. thank you nicholas for trying to solve my ionic equilibria questions. even tho you didnt manage to find the answer. thank you li hui for offering your help. thank you yunjing yuntong huifen tricia vanessa and many others who tried to cheer me up. but after all i am the only one who can help myself so i must not let myself rot further.

yesterday i was looking through my chem promos paper i realised i could have done so much better and if could have just put in a little more effort i would have promoted and wouldnt be so scared of retaining now. but now all i can do is just to look forward and...

bio maths chem repapers here i come. i wont let my chance go by again.

and i am really fine without you

the last few days have been spent at home. didnt study much cos i wasnt in the mood to and my mind was just filled with so many thoughts that i could just spend a whole day memorizing a disgusting chem bonding table.

and i realised many things. i realised that i cant live without my psp cos now i hear songs with it. i realised that running takes away your misery and makes you forget about some stuff that just clings on to you. i realised that i can live without sleep.i realised that i have given up many things in my life just because of some things. i realise that listening to some songs always makes me cry. i realised that i miss school cos i cant see my friends and i miss them :( i realised that my good friends really stand by me. and i also realised that some people just hurt you without knowing it and they have no qualms about it. and they never ever looked back and regret what they have done and they dont feel the pain you feel.

but i am not going to let it affect me so much cos i got to really do well for my repapers and i am really glad for the people who helped me alot. thanks geraldine for making me cry and laugh. thank you jeanette for always trying to organise study outings for me but i guess i would be fine staying at home. thank you nicholas for trying to solve my ionic equilibria questions. even tho you didnt manage to find the answer. thank you li hui for offering your help. thank you yunjing yuntong huifen tricia vanessa and many others who tried to cheer me up. but after all i am the only one who can help myself so i must not let myself rot further.

yesterday i was looking through my chem promos paper i realised i could have done so much better and if could have just put in a little more effort i would have promoted and wouldnt be so scared of retaining now. but now all i can do is just to look forward and...

bio maths chem repapers here i come. i wont let my chance go by again.

and i am really fine without you